I'm Always Late

Yes, I haven't written on my blog in awhile...

I am officially 1/6 done with my freshman year of college. Tomorrow I am taking my Saints in Art and Latin exam and I will be 1/2 done.

As of late, I've been through mess of musical phases. I bought the new Raconteurs album, which is much more upbeat and I guess... harder than "Broken Boy Soldiers"... I don't usually rate albums with scores, but only in comparison to other albums of the same artist or genre. You can't put Jars of Clay up against Mastodon... two different styles of music. Anyways, better than their first but there still something I liked off the first that isn't on the second. The last track called "Carolina Drama" has the story (sorta) resembled like "The Night the Lights Went Out in Georgia". Nine Inch Nails also self-released another album called "The Slip". With a couple of listens, I can tell this a better Trent Reznor than "With Teeth"... I'm still listening to "With Teeth" today, can't get over "Right Where You Belong"... little piano in the background, with his soft voice and thundering beats saturated here and there. He always goes off with a soft note... expect for "The Slip" which has we wondering whether if he wanted to break the mold with this released being freed from major labels. Still, I don't think either of these efforts will match his "Pretty Hate Machine", "Downward Spiral" or "The Fragile" releases....

Now for the last hour or so memorizing Art History paintings, I listened to The Postal Service and David Crowder*Band.

Enough with the music.

The week, with everything ending and coming at me at the same time, makes my mind a little frayed. Honestly, I haven't been faithful with praying my Breviary... I just realized at 9:22 that I haven't prayed Evening Prayer. (sigh)... I don't want to think "Oh I'm only a freshmen"... that seems lame. I keep thinking, "What I do as a seminarian, I will do as a priest." I thought I would go into the seminary with that in mind... and keep living up to it. I haven't been keeping that in mind this year as much as I wanted to have. Sure, I make it down to chapel early enough, but when I get there, I'm so tired I can't really pray "productively". I recite the Office and move on to a mixture between dozing off and praying words of struggle to stay awake. In the afternoon, besides Mondays, my time in the chapel has been awesome... when I make it there. If I'm not wasting time in my room surfing the internet, doing homework... or other useless activities, I'm sleeping. Next year, I want to take hold of my time much better than I do now. I think that its too late to start good habits because in less than two weeks summer will be here and things will be so different.

"If I'm out of my mind, its you."

Now, I guess I'll explain the title of my blog. Sadly I picked a Depeche Mode song... "All I ever wanted, All I ever needed, was you in my heart..." Even sadder, I learned of that song from a cover done by a straight up hardcore band called Evergreen Terrace. I used to like them alot, but now not so much...